Winter Just Wasn't My Season

“Some times you are such a jerk,” I snapped at Jordan as he stood there with arrogant grin on his face. He started to say something but I didn’t want to hear it and I told him that. “Just leave us alone.”

As Jordan stalked off, I turned to Josh who had gotten off his knees when Jordan came home. “Honey…” I went to him, wrapped my arms around his waist and held him. I honestly didn’t know what to say about moving in with him. I thought we needed to talk about it more.

We stood in each other’s arms for a long time; it felt so good I didn’t want it to end. And if it wasn’t for his watch beeping, he probably would still be holding me. “Anna,” he kissed the top of my head. “I didn’t mean for it to come out that way, he’s not the reason I want us to live together.”

“I know,” I told him as I tried to snuggle closer to him. It was true, I did know that but I did wonder if that was the reason he wanted it to happen so soon.

“I have to go,” he sighed. “Were we getting together after you get off work tonight?”

“Mmmhmm,” I gave him a squeeze before I smiled up at him. “I was going to come over after, is that ok?”

He told me that sounded great. “I hope that we can talk about this then?”

I giggled, “Will you be half asleep?”

“No!” He chuckled, “I’ll be fully awake, even if I have to take a nap after I get off work!”

I walked him the three feet to the door and gave him a kiss before he jogged away. Before closing the door, I noticed that my car was now sitting in the driveway.

That jerk! I closed the door harder than I meant too and made a beeline straight for Jordan’s room. “What the hell were you doing taking my car without even asking?” I asked him as his door bounced off the wall as I threw it open.

Jordan turned towards me slowly, “It’s not the first time I’ve borrowed your car without asking.”

“No, it’s not.” I agreed. “But damn it Jordan, you came home drunk! And you think I wouldn’t mind you stealing my car?”

He rolled his eyes, “I’m not going to argue with you, so stop trying to pick a fight. Now if you’ll excuse me, I need to get in the shower and get ready for work.” He turned to his dressed and was going through the top drawer for a pair of underwear and socks when I picked up his pillow and flung it at him.

“Don’t turn away from me when I’m talking to you!” I snapped at him as he looked over his shoulder at me.

“You really need to calm down Anna,” he said softly, which irritated the hell out of me.

“How could you Jordan? Why would you say something like that to Josh?”

He slammed his drawer shut. “Because it’s true! Why can’t you see that he’s only trying to control you? Wanting you to move in because he misses you? HA! He wants you to move in so that you are around him 24 hours and not living a life of your own!”

“No, that’s not true!”

“Yes is it!” Jordan came over to me, “Since you started seeing him, you’ve changed! You don’t do anything without his approval. When you do try to do something without him, he’s calling you or showing up unexpectantly!”

“I’m still the same person I always was Jordan!”

Jordan stared down at me for a minute and then he shrugged, “Fine, whatever. Move in with Josh, be his little robot. See if I care.”

“Jordan it’s not -”

“Anna, I don’t care. It’s your life, do what you want. I have to get ready for work, please leave.”

I didn’t move I stood there staring at him. I wanted to tell him that Josh wasn’t like that, that he would see. I don’t need his approval, I do things I want to do. And yes, I want to spend time with him, I don’t like not being with him. “Jordan…” I started to say something but he rolled his eyes at me.

“What will it take to get you to leave me alone?” He asked and then he gave me a smile. “I bet I know,” he reached for his shirt and pulled it over his head. When I didn’t move, he laughed, “Interesting. You know it’s all coming off,” he said as he undid the button on his jeans and pulled the zipper down. My eyes remained on his face, as he pushed his jeans to the floor.

“Not much left,” he said in a teasing tone. “I’d get out if I were you, Josh wouldn’t like it if you saw me naked, especially after last night.”

I rolled my eyes, “You aren’t going to strip in front of me.” I told him as I crossed my arms over my chest and glared at him.

“No?” He raised a brow and smiled at me. “I guess you’ll soon find out.” Jordan shortened the distance between us. “I’d get out of here if I were you, these are coming off.” When I didn’t move he shrugged, “Ok.”

I couldn’t see what he was doing; he was too close to see where his hands went when they weren’t in my line of vision. He was moving around in front of me when he raised a brow and looked down, “Huh! Looks like ‘little Jordy’ is up this morning.”

And that’s when I looked down.

“I KNEW IT!” He exclaimed as my head snapped back up. “It’s that right there Anna that makes me wonder if you really know what you are doing with Josh.”

I rolled my eyes at him, “That means nothing Jordan!”

“No?” He frowned, “For some reason I don’t think that Josh would think you standing there watching me get naked means nothing.”

“You didn’t get naked,” I pointed out.

He chuckled, “No I didn’t. But you looked anyway.”

“Whatever Jordan,” I went to leave but he grabbed my arm and turned me around. “Jor-”

My words got lost as his mouth covered mine. It took me a moment to realize that he was trying to kiss me. And when that realization struck, I snapped.

Pulling back from him, I didn’t even give him a chance to say anything before my hand landed soundly against his cheek. “I told you never to do that again!”

I ran from his room, started to head for mine when I heard him call out to me. I changed my direction, I ran out through the kitchen. Grabbing my keys from the table, I barely slipped on my boots and took my jacket before I was out the door.

“Anna wait!”

I fumbled with the remote for a moment and panic set in as I saw Jordan coming down the steps towards me. He didn’t bother to grab a jacket, only his boots. If I wasn’t so upset with him I probably would’ve yelled at him to get his butt back in the house, he was only wearing his boxers.

As I drove away, I knew I couldn’t go back. That there was no way Jordan and I could ever live together after that.

I didn’t even know if we could be friends.