Moonlight Madness?

I don’t know how but we ended up in his bed. Ok, I know how! I mean I don’t recall actually moving from the living room to his room. From the moment his lips touched mine it seemed my mind stopped and my heart took over.

Josh was still above me, although the waves of passion had long since gone. For some reason he didn’t move to lay down beside me, he seemed content to crush the bejesus out of me. “Josh?” I barely managed to squeak his name, he was seriously squishing me.

He jumped slightly, “Hmmm?” He gave his head a tiny shake as if he was trying to wake up.

“You fell asleep on me?” I gasped.

“Yes,” he nodded sheepishly. “I’m so sorry honey.” He lifted his body from mine and instantly the cool air surrounded me and I started to shiver. Once he was settled on his side me pulled me into his arms and covered us up. “Cold?” His questioning whisper caressed my ear as his hand ran over my naked flesh, giving me goose bumps for a whole other reason.

Nodding, I wiggled back against him, trying to steal his warmth. I thought he was going back to sleep so I didn’t say anything. We laid there in silence in his semi darken room, the moon was the only source of light for us. I was about to nod off when he shifted his weight and rolled over onto his back, letting the cold at me again. “Hey!” I groaned, turning around quickly to snuggle up against him again.

“Sorry,” he chuckled and tucked the blankets around my shoulders. “Is that better?”

Giving him a gentle squeeze, I smiled. “I’m just perfect now.”

“Good,” he smiled, I think he did. I could see his cheek move, so I’m assuming he was smiling. “So how much trouble would I get in if I tell you this wasn’t part of my plan when I got in the blanket?”

Frowning, I raised myself up on my elbow and looked down at him. “What do you mean? What was your plan?”

“Well,” he retucked the blankets around my body. “All I was planning on was to get you half naked and cuddle with me on the couch.”

“Why?” I asked cautiously.

He lifted his hand to my face and brushed my hair behind my ear. “I didn’t know if I had the energy to make love to you like you deserve.”

I chuckled, “Oh we both know that wasn’t an issue. What made you change your plan?”

Josh took a deep breath, “Oh I don’t know, could’ve been the curve you threw me, acting all innocent and then striping like you did.”

I grinned, “But I am innocent!”

Springing to his side, Josh turned me over onto my back as he chuckled. “Well if you were, which I know you weren’t, you certainly aren’t anymore.” He lowered his head, brushing his lips against my cheek. “Anna, you make me feel so alive.”

I couldn’t think of anyway to respond to that, anything I thought of just sounded so silly to me, so I did the only thing I could think of, I wrapped my arms around his body, holding him tight as I pressed my face against his neck. “I love you Josh,” I whispered against his skin. I felt his lips move on my shoulder, “Me too Anna. Me too.”

It’s hard to tell how I felt every time he uttered those words but as I laid in his arms, I knew that I never wanted to be without him, I never wanted him to stop saying those three little words.

Time passed but we weren’t any closer to sleeping. He seemed restless, every ten minutes he'd rolled onto his back or his side and each time he did, I had to move with him. Finally he sighed and sat up, “I’m sorry I just can’t seem to fall asleep.”

Sitting up with him, I gently began to rub his back. “Something on your mind?” I knew it was a stupid thing to ask, I was betting he was thinking about Jesse.

He glanced at me and nodded, “I can’t help but wonder if Roy will find something out and how soon it will be. I just want to have Jesse here where I know he’s safe.” He fell back against the bed and tugged at my arm to get me to join him. “There have been many nights where I got up, drove to Carol’s and sat outside their house waiting, hoping for something to happen so I could go and grab Jesse and take him away.” He ran his hand through his hair, “I know it’s wrong but I’ve gotten here some days when I had him, packed up a lot of our stuff, put it in the car and left town. Of course, I always come back because if I do take him away like that I can ruin any chance I have at custody. But it’s so damn tempting Anna.”

“Josh, Roy will find out what is going on over there and you will get custody of Jesse.”

He kissed my forehead, “Honey how do you know? Nothing is for sure. I’m a single guy, with a full time job, what judge in their right mind is going to give me custody of a 2 year old who I’d have to put in day care while I work?”

“Well it’s happened before Josh, there’s no reason it can’t happen now.”

“But Anna if there’s nothing going on over there, the court won’t take him away from Carol.” He gave a pathetic chuckle, “Is it horrible to wish that they are doing terrible things? That they are evil people just because I want my son?” He groaned, “God, just listen to me. ‘I want’, it’s not what I want it’s what’s best for Jesse!”

I waited a moment to see if he was done, he didn’t say anything else, so I did. “Josh there is something going on over at Carol’s, maybe they aren’t doing anything to Jesse, maybe he’s just seeing something. But whatever it is, it’s scaring him enough that he has such a violent reaction when he sees his mom or thinks he has to go back there. No court in their right mind will let her continue to have custody of him when you are able to provide such a loving and nurturing environment for him. Sure, you work full time but your job is Monday to Friday during the best times for the greatest daycare around and you have all the major holidays off. Even without the day care, you have family and friends who would do all they could to help you adjust to having Jesse while you work. Nothing is impossible Josh not if it matters as much to you as I know Jesse does.”

He was quiet for so long after I stopped talking that I was wondering if I upset him or put him to sleep. “Josh?” Reaching up, I touched his cheek and immediately his hand captured mine.

“Marry me.”