Thursday, October 11, 2007

More Confusing Than Ever

“Oh Eric,” I went to him, giving him a hug that surprised him. “I’m sure that things will work out with you two. Besides, I know Mike wouldn’t have brought you home to meet all of us, if he wasn’t serious about you.” I pulled back enough to smile up at him, “I can honestly say you are the first guy he has introduce any of us too.”

“Do you really –”

What ever it was that Eric was going to ask me was cut off by Nick and Jordan as they ran out into the kitchen, hiding behind us as Mike came after them yelling, “Get back here you little bastards!”

“We aren’t that stupid!” Jordy yelled back as Mike rounded the corner and came to a dead stop.

“Anna?” Mike seemed a little confused. Maybe it was because he wasn’t expecting me to be there, or maybe it was the fact that his boyfriend and I were technically holding each other fairly close still; either way, he seemed to forget about his pursuit of the boys. “What are you doing?” He asked, dragging a hand through his hair.

I glanced up at Eric, who wasn’t paying any attention to me now that Mike was in the room, not that I blamed him; Mike was looking really hot in his old high school t-shirt and boxers. Then again, Mike always looked hot, it didn’t matter if he just rolled out of bed or if he spent hours on his appearance, he was good looking, and he knew it.

“I’m trying to convince Eric that girls are better than boys,” I flashed Eric one of my naughtiest smiles before resting my head against his chest. “Oh my!” I squeezed his bicep, “Do you work out?” As I fluttered my eyelashes, Eric turned really red.

“I…umm…” his arms fell away from me as he looked everywhere else but down at me.

Mike was laughing, “Sorry Anna, you’re not his type.”

“You just had to go burst my bubble, didn’t you?” I pouted, “You are no fun Mike.” Turning to Eric, who was still red, I smiled. “It’s ok, it’s not the first time I wasn’t a guy’s type.”

I didn’t expect Eric to say anything to me, I thought I had crossed the line with him, but he glanced at me over his shoulder and smiled, “If I need some arm candy, I’ll give you a call.”

For the second time in less than ten minutes, I found myself saying, ‘oh Eric!’ and throwing my arms around his shoulders, “You say the sweetest things!”

Jordan, who had been watching all this with a smirk on his face, rolled his eyes when I said that. “Enjoy it while it lasts,” he mumbled. “In two seconds she’ll forget you even exist.”

I backed away from Eric, glaring at Jordan. “What is that supposed to mean?”

Jordan crossed his arms and stared down at me. “It means nothing Anna, nothing at all.”

“The hell it does!” I stepped closer to him. “If you have something to say to me, then say it, don’t be like that.”

“Ok fine,” Jordan dropped his arms. “I don’t think Josh would be too happy to know that you are flirting with other guys!”

“Oh my God Jordan!” I rolled my eyes. “Josh wouldn’t –”

“No?” Jordan scoffed. “He would, unless…”

“Unless what?”

Jordan grinned, “Unless it’s only me that he’s worried about.”

Once again, I rolled my eyes. “I’m not even justifying that with a response Jordan!” I went to turn away from him but some thing about the way he stared down at me stopped me. “What is your problem Jordan? Why are you even bringing all this up now?”

I didn’t get an answer to that; Mike suddenly seemed really impatient to get my attention. “Aren’t you going to say ‘hello’ to me?” He asked as he spun me around to face him. “I mean,” he looked around the room and then back at me, “You came all the way here, flirt with my man and ignore me?” Lifting his t-shirt, he sniffed it. “I don’t smell that bad!”

“Well…”

“Get over here,” he tugged on my arm until I was close enough for him to hug. “It’s good to see you babe,” he leaned down until his mouth was close to my ear. “Go easy on Jordy; he really needs a friend now.”

Before it even registered what he had said, he was pushing back from me, “I’m starving; who wants to make breakfast?” he asked with a laugh.

“I would,” Eric responded, sounding really upset that he couldn’t. “But I have to get going before I’m late.”

Mike paused, looking at him. “Yeah,” he said slowly before turning his attention to the guys. “What do you guys want? There’s…” he yanked open the door to the fridge, “eggs…bacon…ummm…” he bent over to dig further into the fridge as Eric grabbed his lunch and headed for the door.

“I should be home around 5:30,” he said to everyone but it was Mike he was looking at. And it was Mike who didn’t acknowledge him.

I watched Eric slip his shoes on, glace at Mike and then sigh before yanking the door open. “Have a good day at work,” I gave him a smile, which he tried to return. “Hurry home,” I told him; I felt bad that Mike was just letting him go without saying anything to him, it wasn’t right. I would kill Josh if he did that to me.

“Thanks Anna,” he said as he disappeared out into the hallway, the door closing silently after him.

“Those are your choices,” Mike reappeared from the fridge, “What did you guys what?” He looked at us, frowning. “What?”

I went to tell him I thought he was being an ass but Nick beat me to it. “I can’t even look at you right now,” he stated before he walked out of the kitchen.

“What’s his problem?” Mike glanced back and forth between a surly Jordan and me.

“You don’t deserve him, you know that?” I threw over my shoulder as I went to find where Nick went.

I guess he turned to Jordan after I left for I heard Jordan say, “For once I agree with them, you could’ve at least said ‘bye’ to him; what if something happens?”

“Nothing is going to happen,” Mike called after Jordan as he walked into the dining room, on his way to where we were sitting.

“No?” Jordan glanced at Nick and me before facing Mike again. “You never know until it’s too late.”

30 comments:

PCS said...

waw I'm really curious to see what happens next... great post!

Anna said...

Good Afternoon Everyone, I hope everyone is having a great day.

You know what? I'm tired of this...seriously, I am.

You think the blog is great, that's good, I love that you do. You think the blog is crap, then that's great too. I never ever stopped anyone from voicing their options and I never will.

Funny thing is, this blog hasn't changed from the day it was started, it's always been slow in time - each entry has always been about three pages in Word when I type it, that's what normally determines the lenght of the post, it's always been about relationships that Anna has with the people around her...nothing has changed.

No, the blog hasn't changed but I have. I no longer want to write it...so maybe some have picked up on that...I really don't know what I was thinking, three blogs? Seriously? I was freaking nuts when I started the second one, and totally insane when I started the third...but do you want to know the truly messed up part? I've been thinking about a fourth one! How screwed up is that? I don't even have the time to do the ones I have...

This blog has been going for 10 months now, with 252 entries...I'm not sure how many more there will be...or if the other blogs are the ones that will meet their end. Or maybe neither will...I don't really know, it's something I've been struggling with for the past couple months.

I'm rambling, I know...I'm tired and sore and yes, cranky. I'm human ~l~ go figure.

Angela

The Middle Child said...

Wow, he's being an ass!

You aren't human, you are super human.

Seriously love your blogs, but if you decide to quit I will just feel blessed that I was able to read what you did have time to write. We all need our time and I for one would understand if you quit.

I have five blogs, two of which I only write on once a month, and the other three I am pretty regular with... I barely have the time for those, so I understand. Don't let anyone make you feel bad for wanting what is best for you.

MonkeySpeak said...

Hmm I haven't commented in a long time. Mostly bc I just started a new position and there is a lot more to do during the day so I have to catch up once a week.

But i read through some of the comments and WOAH

1) I gagged when someone said the blog was gross. Are you serious? Keep your political views to yourself, this is meant for entertainment, not for you to voice some religious propeganda about how wrong something may be. No offense to anyone but they are characters, leave the religion and politics out of it (everyone deserves to be happy, open up your minds or just leave it be).

2) I am sorry you feel stressed! Maybe you should cut back to posting in each one once a week. or something? Itll bring the stress down perhaps?

3) I am all for critism, WHEN IT'S CONSTRUCTIVE. telling someone you find their blog boring or slow is an opinion which is fine, thats part of critism, but you don't give any insight as to what you are looking for. Calling someone boring or insulting their style is more just nagging and being nitpicky. I read A LOT of novels and I don't know about you but there are chapters that are better than others sometimes. Not ever post needs to be high drama, cuz yall would bitch about that too anyway. "There is too much drama, its not realistic, omg its getting too slow, it needs more drama."

I think comment sections should be used to discuss whats IN the blog, not complain about it. (ok, i might be a hypocrite right now, but i know how tough it is to write and i know when you are not feeling motivated its that much harder, so the fact that anna is still writing for yall is awesome).

sorry this was long.

MonkeySpeak said...

Oh and to say "Just to let you know, I keep reading this hoping itll get better" is a REALLY bitchy thing to say (or however it was phrased). It doesn't make your comment any better. How about, I keep reading this because I have loved your blog for so long I haven't wanted to stop, even if you've been tired lately.

oh and something constructive could be "Some of the heart has left your writing. I loved when we could feel the emotion behind your words." NOTICE YOU TELL THE WRITER WAHT YOU LIKE ABOUT THEIR WRITING, you don't just complain and tell them it sucks. hmmmm. what a concept - tell them WHY you like them so much and what you are looking for. weird. (although I still look forward to reading, ive liked the past couple of posts!)

Anonymous said...

You are a talented writer and if you decide to quit that's totally your call. If its possible though, could you wrap things up before you quit? Maybe do a futuristic post so we can see where everyone ends up. Also, if you decide to quit, think long and hard before coming back again. I've seen alot of bloggers miss writing so they start their blog back up again only to stop a few weeks later. Its very disappointing. Anyway, I hope you figure out what you need to do. Good luck with your decision! :)

Anonymous said...

Angela, I think you are awesome & that your blogs are awesome! I really hope you don't decide to quit writing them and that you get your love for it back! You have many, many readers that love you & this blog - we would miss you terribly!

Stacey

Mehreen said...

Anna, I understand if you want to stop, but please wrap it up if you do...and definitely stop if you've lost your passion for the writing. Posting in a public forum opens you up to both praise and pressure, but you can't shut people up just because they say what they think. I think you are insane for having 3 blogs, and I think it's even more insane that all 3 are relatively good! Maybe it would be easier if you only posted on one each day...I just ask if you do end, let us know what happens...esp. because it sounds like Jordy just lost someone.

Anonymous said...

More Confusing Than Ever....

That's how I felt when I read the comments today. I had to go back and read what happen. All I can say is some people really know how to take the fun out of life. Homosexuality = Gross??? Where have you been? Under a rock? You really need to get used to it. Angela, I don't find your blog boring at all. You need to do what's good for you and if that is writing, great for us. If not, I hope you have found these last months enjoyable because I have.
Thanks
~M

Carmel Beauty said...

I love your blogs I have one of my own and I truly understand that life can be so time consuming that you just don't have enough time in the day to write your blog. I would understand if at some point you decided to stop one or more of them just please please give an ending before you do if you don't mind and it's not too much trouble. Keep up the good work loved the post as always.

Anonymous said...

As much as I LOVE all your blogs, I respect you as a writer and I will miss you if you stop, even happier if you continue blogging, but I am happy for the time that you have given us thus far.

Thank you

GG

Nic said...

How come you are tired of writing and thinking about maybe starting a fourth one?

I agree with everyone else. I love your blogs, all three of them. And it would suck if you would decide to quit, I'm always looking forward to opening your blogs and finding a new post.

Decide what is good for you and what you want to do. Don't just write for us, you need to have fun writing them.
If you do decide to quit, one or all three of them, please give them an ending. Then everyone is happy (well almost since the story is finished and we won't be able to check once every day).

I just love love love your blogs.

Vikki said...

I must have missed something, but as has been stated multiple times already (so let me re-iterate) if you decide to stop your blogs, I will REALLY miss them, but you have to do what's right for you.

The stories are GREAT!! But if you aren't happy writing anymore, then you should stop. Whatever you decide we will support.

All you Haters, just leave! Thanks :^)

Now, about the post...

Mike is being a butt!! Something is going on with those two. Hopefully they can work it out. Poor Eric. I can't wait to read what happens next.

Melissa Robinson said...

i love your blog, and as weird as it sounds, if Jordy were a real guy, I would want to date him! I absolutely love his character! What happened to Bella...is this what is about? Or maybe Heather?

Melissa Robinson said...

oh, and honestly if you are going to drop a blog...which would you drop? This one and Knock on Wood are my favs...just in case you were going to take a vote :)

Anonymous said...

Anna/Angela,

I never post in the comments section but I've been reading all of your blogs since the beginning. First let me say, you are an extremely talented writer and I've enjoyed every entry you have written.

I've seen so many writers come and go. I'm a writer myself but not much of a blogger for one simple reason...I've seen writer's on here criticized for grammatical errors, for not posting enough, for having too many things going on at one time even though that's the way life works, for deciding to quit and telling people that, for deciding to quit and not telling people that, for having a different viewpoint...need I go on??? There is always someone complaining about something.

It seems to be the nature of people to complain rather than be happy for what they have and I, personally, find it to be rather annoying. For the most part, I rarely read the comments section and simply enjoy the story line. I just happened to check the comments today.

If I may make a suggestion that is meant to be simply that...a suggestion. I have a tendancy to start things and more things and then more things because I love the whole process of starting something new! Make sense? It may be more satisfying to you to start a new blog and find a beginning, a middle, and finally an end. That way you can start another story line without weighing yourself down with 2, 3, or even 4 different blogs at once.

You have some great storylines going for you. It sounds like you have even more great ideas floating around in your head. Maybe try something like one blog at a time and say 50 entries to make it a complete story. I don't know but if writing is a passion for you (and clearly it is) then mix it up some but definitely cut back and don't make it a chore.

Again, that is simply a suggestion and may or may not be something that will bring back the excitement of blogging for you. If it wouldn't make it enjoyable again, then wrap up your stories and take a break. Or...and I know eveyone disagrees with me on this...don't wrap up your storylines and take a break. It is your blog, your time, your life and you don't owe anyone on here anything.

Whatever you decide to do, thank you for all of the entertainment you have provided us with. Many of us out here are less outspoken but appreciate all of your time and hard work.

-Sandra

Anonymous said...

I know I am being selfish, but please don't stop!!! I love this blog, have been reading from the start. You are so talented. We all would understand you taking breaks every now and then, but please don't stop! I know, I am selfish! But we love your writing girl!!

Sandy

Antoinette said...

I've never posted on here before, but i think you are a fantastic writer and i love all three of your blogs, i'd be very sad to see you end them because you are very talented. But i agree with everyone else, do what is best for you!

Anonymous said...

Love this blog sweetheart! and the others, i cant get enough...its an addiction for me...just wanted to let you noe that i think u do a fantastic job!! hope u continue to write and enjoy it !

Anonymous said...

My life isn't perfect and sometimes it's down right crappy. I love coming here and reading all your blogs at night. It's so entertaining and well written. I, like many others, would have never commented- but I have to say this. People that go on to other people's blogs and trash them are losers. You have that little to do with your time that you comment on something that you don't like. How about this- spend time doing something that you love. How pathetic that you need to waste your time being negative.

On a side note, I am very proud to be living in a state that allows gay marriage. I sm not better than anyone else just because I'm straight.

Amy

Anonymous said...

I realy hope that you don't quit. I don't think that you would be happy, and that you would eventually come back to writing. You have said yourself that you are already thinking of a 4th blog. THat is a crazy idea. Maybe you need to only continue on with one or two blogs and post less. We would all like ot see you continue, but if that comes with fewer posts and fewer blogs, so be it.

We will all support your decision.

Elizabeth

Lynn said...

Angela,
Please don't quit. How would I explain to my boss if my productivity increased suddenly!

Seriously I love all your blogs, but like someone else stated, you have to do what is right for you. I vot if you do decide to quit, to wrap up the story in some way.

Thanks

Lynn said...

I wonder if Jordan's X, Hank and Jenna are moving. That could be why Jordan is so cranky.

Anonymous said...

Angela,

I think everything insightful and supportive that could be said has already been put out there by your other readers.

However, I can't resist putting my 2 cents in as well *smiles*.

There have been little signs that you've been getting burned out on your blogs. (***Please note, none of this is criticism, just observation***) You haven't been posting as often, you haven't been "talking" to us through the comments section as often, and the tone of the stories has taken a turn for the darker. None of this is bad, just indicators that something might be up.

As we all know, life gets in the way of what we enjoy sometimes. And that's what most blogs are supposed to be; something we enjoy. If you don't get enjoyment out of it, you should stop or take a break. You will be missed terribly if that's what you decide, but like Sandra said: you don't owe us anything. You have already been FAR more generous to your readers than most other bloggers.

Take care of yourself and happy writing for the future!

Carolyn

Anonymous said...

Angela,

I just wanted to clarify a few things about my comment yesterday since I see you responded to it and so did a few other readers. I simply stated I felt your blog was becoming boring and dragging because in fact- thats how i felt, it was MY OPINION, not anyone else's. I don't need to explain myself or surgar-coat anything because then it wouldnt be my opinion, now would it!?!?

You, yourself stated how you didnt want to be writing anymore and perhaps I have sensed that in your writing. I TRUTHFULLY did not intend for my comment to be hurtful. I was just stating how I felt, it wasnt meant to "TRASH" you as one reader put it. I also said I keep reading in hopes that it will get better-- I did not mean that in a BITCHY way, I meant it just how I wrote it, I'm evantually hoping the pace will pick back up. ITS AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

I read all 3 of your blogs everyday, and I will continue to do so until you stop. AGAIN, I was just letting you know how one of your readers felt, but I guess I wont do that anymore, since I will just get bashed for it.

and For AMY- I think the pathetic one is YOU. You have so little to do that you have to write about how people are Losers for stating their opinion?? Get a Life.

Anonymous said...

Also,

Angela I apologize if what I wrote offended you in any way.

- Lisa
NYC, NY

Anonymous said...

Angela - LOOK AT ALL THE LOVE!!! Of course we want you to enjoy what you are doing...but when things look bad, we circle around you & support you! Notice there are no negative people now, because we have surrounded you & protected you! We love you!

Stacey

Anonymous said...

Whew, I got so caught up in all the comments I almost forgot what I was going to comment on.

I'm with everyone when I say that I will miss your blog if you decide to stop. I have often wondered how you manage to keep up writing 3 of them as well as reading others. I barely have time to read the small collection I that I have come to enjoy. But you must follow your heart and if your heart is not into it, then you'll have to stop. Please please please just don't leave us hanging though.

As for todays post:
I thought it was great. I am wondering what is going on with Jordy, as someone else asked, where is Bella? What is going on with Mike. I think there is more to it than his multiple jobs and such. Him and Eric are definately drifting apart. It is sad, not that we know much about them but because it is sad when any couple drifts apart.

Along this path said...

Angela,

I have been reading your blogs pretty much from the beginning. I look forward to reading them everyday at work & I check several times a day until a new entry is posted. I have always been amazed that you write so often and on three different blogs. I totally understand if you are getting burned out and I would understand if you decided to quit. (Not that I want you to though) If this has turned into a job for you then it's not worth it. Like I have said before, you should do this for your own enjoyment! If you decide to quit, just know that I truly enjoyed reading your writing.

MH

Anonymous said...

Oh I'm sorry lisa-ny. You are a loser because you're a critical bitch. This girl is doing something nice, writing for us for free, and you're acting like her high school english teacher. Hey, go ahead, write your opinion . . . still makes you a loser to be hateful to someone's writing that you supposedly enjoy.

Thank you for continuing to write angela.

Amy